As an honor to the last month of 2015, I have decided to look at the past last months.
This year has been packed with numerous up’s and a handful of downs. I lost one of my best friend (He didn’t pass away or anything, but it sure as hell feels like he did) I use to catch myself waking up middle of the night in tears. Being cut off by someone you deeply care about with no explanations as to why, could destroy any human. It’s very difficult to try to reach out to someone who wants nothing to do with you, or the world, for that matter of fact. I just hope …life is nothing but wonderful for him, I pray he is blessed with a blissful life.
I gained a close friend, this year. Who has taught me so much about life. I learned how hard relationships were, what it meant to commit. How to get back up countless times after heartbreaks. She thought me that hard work always pays off, and that I am not the only one with a chaos mind.
I’ve spent so much time alone, and plenty times with company. I have loathed myself, felt insecure, worthless, and even at some points desperate. Other times I’ve absolutely loved myself, and who I have become. I’ve felt beautiful, carefree, confident, happy, and powerful. I have felt like I could conquer any problems that appear in my way. Most importantly I have felt loved.
To master the art of getting by, you would have to accept that the only thing you can rely on in this life is ‘change’. People change, feelings change, season change, and times change. We hear this numerous times, “to live each day like it were out last”. While in reality if today were really my last, I’d probably spend it having a variety of emotions, from anger, to fear, to joy. I might even cry, and regret things I’ve wasted time on; But honestly who knows when our last days are. So with that in mind, I promise to not deny myself the simple beauty of life. I have decided to live an extraordinary life. Take adventures, read more books, watch movies, spend time with family , say whats on my mind, dance instead of walk, be healthy, eat delicious (even though unhealthy) food, volunteer more, kiss more, love more, take risks, grasp opportunity, laugh loudly, smile more, trust instincts, learn more, make mistakes not once not twice but countless times, grow, hold on, and let go.
Finally to ‘Master The Art of Getting By’ you just have to live. So far i’d say we are all doing a phenomenal job.