Lets Talk “IT”!

Sex, drugs, and party seems to be the major topics in this generation music or even life style. All three together is looked upon negatively, and I never understood why sex was one of that. Aren’t we taught we could do anything we’d like with our bodies . Aren’t females taught that they should feel empowered by their bodies and could put it on display anyway they’d like. So how come it is seen negatively sometimes? When is the right time for sex to be okay? you can do whatever you’d like, yes its your body but always respect yourself.

Never feel the need to validate yourself by having sex, don’t feel pressured, don’t think someone will like you because you have sex with them. If you didn’t agree to it, tell someone don’t suffer in silence.

I believe sex is looked upon as a form to make ” love” meaning, when you’re with the rest person all the emotions are there, it would be one of the greatest feelings you could physically feel, closest thing to doing drugs

Differently indifferent.

It’s been a while since i’ve posted, a ‘long’ while. Writing almost feel foreign to me at this point. Been through so much, accomplished so little…but i’m getting there, I have no other option. My fear is to wake up one day in my late 50’s and realize I haven’t accomplished anything I set my mind to in my younger years. My fear is to wake up one day and realize I wasn’t able to show my loved ones I could make my dreams come through before the cycle of life takes them. My fear is to wake up one day and not only be disappointed with the world, but most of all be disappointed with myself. My fear is to wake up one day and find out I’ve lost myself.

No work or love will flourish out of guilt, fear, or hollowness of heart, just as no valid plans for the future can be made by those who have no capacity for living now.

-Alan Watts

Why I am convincing myself you aren’t good enough.

2months ago

Why I am convincing myself its not worth it. Is the same reason behind all these broken hearts and empty promises.

Is it really worth it to put in a 100% when the other person isn’t putting in half. All I have ever hoped was for things to be reciprocated. This  doesn’t have to do with just romantic relationships, but in general.

I don’t know how many times this year I have made the statement “not good enough” is it because there’s an undying feeling that I may not be good enough? In most romantic relationships I have, I am constantly thinking the other can probably do better, and find someone more “perfect” for them. I guess I am convincing myself, you aren’t good enough because I am expecting so much more.I have set a standard that you just cant compare to, I am not being self centered, shallow, narcissistic, or selfish(maybe a little) .

I just don’t want someone that I would have to “mold” or have to temporary change them. As judgmental as this may sound, I want someone who meets most of my standards, so we can both grow together. Take steps forward, not behind.

“Whoever you’re I have always depended on the kindness of strangers.”

Sometimes it is much easier to talk about deep troubling thoughts with strangers rather than family or friends. Mostly because, you know if they do judge, you wont have to see them again. Although it is harder to have small talks with strangers, from the fear of being awkward. I have decided to start a ask honeyy forum. Where you can email me about anything bothering you,  from advice, to just plain old rants, or questions about anything . I will be here to chat. I believe everyone has reached a point in life, where they wish they had someone to talk to.

honeyylime@hotmail.com